I'm at a 2. I broke the start of my 2 week fast from anything THC 4 days in. I was having some serious bad thoughts of things I'd like to do with a person in upper management.
There was young gal that was being taken advantage of by him also a young Fella whom I've taken a strong liking to whom I call Dabs. Dabs was caught ripping dabs in the parking lot by this loser in management. This loser in management was making dabs clock out at times & still work or be let go.
A part time job is not worth the issues that would come from being stupid. So I recently met this loser in his drive way, while staying in the street off of his property, we talked for less than 2 minutes. I let him know he would be called into the big man's office the next day, let him know the two people that would be there being the young gal & my young buddy Dabs.
To my surprise he showed the next day & to be honest my anxiety was headed for a full blown panic attack..... " I've Ducked Up Bad This Time ! " " Why Do I Always get Involved In This Crap " " I'm So Damn Stupid " " I Should Have..." ' I Shouldn't.... " Do any of you ever should on your self ?
I've found that when I should on my self it has to do with shame.
I let the main boss know we needed to talk & I would be bringing 2 others in after we had spoke a minute. I felt like my chest was going to explode I practice my mantra the Doc gave me years ago. While also "Concentrate on breathing " I tell my self. I walk staring ahead, a fella & gal pass me smilling, saying Hi, the best I can do is a nod.
I reach the parking lot & slip into the car with Dabs. We talk a bit & he passes me his rig saying something about this being new & take it easy to which I reply
" Doood Please ! "
I was 4 days in with no THC. I took a good size rip & left it at that. Things changed drastically when I stepped out of the car. I went to the meeting unable to pronounce a single syllable. I think I managed a " Well I think So " & an " of course " other than that I managed with just nods & at one point had a spurt of very embarrassing giggles
But the big man Giggled to so something must have been funny :)
Will find out Monday if the loser is fired. If not his wife shall know.
Sorry if this bores any of you but I find typing like this to be very beneficial for me
Mom, please move this if you deem best..... Swinging for a 7-8 thats where my rod building goes smooth
